the first experience always gives the biggest impact on our lives no matter what like moving to some place new, learning how to drive, knowing new classmates and also falling in love.
i guess there will be no more such terms as "girlfriend" for me :) no more. i have to stop it for the one that will take care of my heart for the rest of my life. for the right person. for my future husband. i can't risk it anymore to be broken by the wrong ones. i'm not saying i want to get married in the nearest time, but i will reserve it. i don't think i can afford another heartbroken as it would destroyed me, emotionally.
it's not that i don't believe in man anymore, i just don't believe love in man anymore. well , not yet for now. the only term that i will carry after this is "fiancee" and "wife" by someone who is willing to carry those terms for the rest of his life.
i guess there will be no more such terms as "girlfriend" for me :) no more. i have to stop it for the one that will take care of my heart for the rest of my life. for the right person. for my future husband. i can't risk it anymore to be broken by the wrong ones. i'm not saying i want to get married in the nearest time, but i will reserve it. i don't think i can afford another heartbroken as it would destroyed me, emotionally.
it's not that i don't believe in man anymore, i just don't believe love in man anymore. well , not yet for now. the only term that i will carry after this is "fiancee" and "wife" by someone who is willing to carry those terms for the rest of his life.
it won't be easy. those two terms to be carried out. i know. everyone knows. but i promise, for the right person, i will try my best until there is no more hope. i will never stop carrying my duty as a wife as long as he will never give up on me. i will keep on going until my last breath. i want that person to do the same thing too. for ever, insyaAllah.
i want him to remind me for everyday prayers.
i want him to take care of my aurat with others.
i want him to watch my behaviors with public.
i will concern about his health and needs every single day.
i will make sure that he has his meal sufficiently.
i will provide the love that no one can give to him.
he will look out for me when i'm sick and i will do the same thing too.
i will never leave him alone in any circumstances and so does he.
we will get through every kinds of challenges and problems together.
he will wipe my tears and i will hug him when we are sad.
there is a quote saying, "the person you love, the person that marries you and your soulmate could never be the same person."
it could be a heartbroken quote but who knows, right? there is nothing impossible in this world if you keep on praying and believing in Allah. i never give up on Allah because he never gives up on me. anything could happen and i try not to lose my hope. i used to be in love with someone, still do, but that does not mean that i couldn't love my future husband. stupid. besides, it is also possible, for the same person, to be... never mind :)
0330 - ukiss
i am ignoring to get hurt less
