this is what happened when i can't sleep -.- two posts in a day. however, this entry is about something that i wrote in the phone before this so i just copy paste it back in here. don't know why i did that. but that's what i do now, right? yeah :)
"i can't sleep. you came into my mind. i miss you. i miss you so much today. still can't stop thinking about you. i barely cry about anything else anymore but when it's about you, in just a second, tears running down my cheek like a fountain. funny when i felt that i don't think i even crossed your mind. i kept thinking that and remembering about our memories. the late night calls and we talked almost about anything just because we wanted to hear each other's voices, right? i think we never end a night call with a fight and i love that so much. you are one of the people that i talked to the most, maybe you are on top of the chart. also, i love it when you called me late night like 3 or 4 am even though i sound annoyed. maybe it simply because you were missing me and just called me for that and it made me fall in love with you even more. listening to your voice early in the morning to wake you up is one of my favorites actually although i always said that i was too lazy. your soft, cute voice and not realizing what you were saying made me laugh a little in the morning and that is not a common routine that i usually do. sometimes i realized that just through our phones, you can make me fall in love with you even more each and every day even we did not meet so often anymore. another things is that when i was mad with you once that made me ignored you just for half a day, yeah half a day, you called and texted me for every second until i responded. so can you imagine how many missed calls and messages that i got that day, right? i never told you this but during that time, even when i was upset with you, i can still smile when i saw your name kept appearing on my phone's screen. when i finally replied your text, you were so grateful where you thank god and asked me questions because you were very worried that something might happened to me at that time. again, i feel deep in your heart slowly and unconsciously. no one has ever did that and showed that they cared so much about me. for a moment there, i felt like only you and i were exist in the world and i really felt like running to you to be by your side, forever."
if you noticed, there are always sentences where i said, "i never told you..." yeah. i always did that to him and that is one of the reasons why... again, never mind :') alright then. got to go into dreams. reality sucks again.
avril lavigne - my happy ending
i wish everything just ends
